that icky feeling

do you ever feel so restless but there's so much work to do? an almost depressive feeling that you almost want to cry your heart out, but you just choke it all up and sulk in your chair and pretend that you are working on something that will change the world. not.

so you browse your old networking accounts, glance through all the photos you posted, the comments your friends made and everything else that you left behind before you found a new networking site to post all your stuff on. but the browsing of the photos makes you smile, you see the younger you with friends and family and you were really happy. then there's an album with the photos of the people who are not with you anymore, the people you miss and the people whom you wish were with you this very moment. you start to sniffle and whimper and hug yourself a little bit (but look out if people are watching). your heart feels like someone is holding it in their palms and is crushing it. you feel your stomach rumble a little. you close your eyes and wish you'll survive the day, and another wish of having a reason to smile again.